Whelmed. Is that a thing?
When I am overwhelmed, I am standing in the river, fighting, moving against the current because I love CONTROL and fear FAITH.
When I am underwhelmed, I close my eyes and allow the river to take me wherever it wishes, smashing me into rocks and tying me up in plant life because I have no BOUNDARIES.
What I want to do is ride the river AND steer. I see and experience what is happening around me and navigate through the areas that feel most beautiful and least scary. I don't have to become a victim of the rapids to relax, and I don't need to resist the forces around me.
Just observe and steer, like faith with boundaries.
Whelmed? Is that a thing?