The first step, as they say, is admitting that you are powerless, and that your life is unmanageable.
In my case, the powerlessness relates specifically to people, more specifically to men, and most specifically to romantic relationships (real or imagined) I have with men, and how I use them to PROVE the theory that I'm not good enough.
There's a thing they say, in the rooms of Al-anon, about how your role in not being treated like a rug, is perhaps not lying on the ground and allowing people to step on you?
In related news, I have removed the carpet from one stair. It took an hour, some prayer, and quite a bit of dexterity.
Bob Villa did not offer any support in this, nor did Jesus make an appearance.
Deep bows to The Man With The Staple Gun, circa 1981, whose diligence and dedication allowed me to burn three times the karma with all of the effort it took to remove each and every blessed one.
I have unending gratitude for Cynthia St. Aubin, who talked me through the simultaneous removal of the mental, emotional and spiritual carpet.
It's important, I think.
To get off the floor.